I’m on the plane now to Seattle.

I ‘m sitting here cramped into a seat becasue my ass is too fat, ha!

The woman next to me is adjusting her position every five seconds and it’s annoying as hell.

I’m hanging out into the aisle to give her space and she’s takin it.

I don’t know how much longer we have till we get there. I’m thinking like 40 minutes.

We got a later start than we had planned.

Only by 10 min or so though.

So we should be there soon by now.

I ended up paying for the last hour of wifi on the plane to check our status.

Worth the $8.00.

The flight is going well, all in all.

I hope it’s over soon though.

My back is starting to get sore.

There’s a little ESA dog to my left across the aisle and he started whining when his hooman had to put him under the seat in front of him.

Poor thing.

Ears were probably popping and everything.

It’s so cute too.

(a few days later) I haven’t been writing as much as I thought I would.

We’ve been so busy and I’ve been having so much fun here.

We finished my tattoo up and boy oh boy did it suck! Ha!

They’re so worth it though.

The pieces are so beautiful (that’s what’s in the photo above).

I’m thrilled to have them done!

It feels so good to have it finished after like, 8 years of having just the outline.

I’m excited to see Bruce.

This is the second time I’ve been away for about a week with him.

At least this time he’s not stuck in a rabies hold at the vet’s office.

Last time he was – when I went into the psych hospital a few years ago, but that’s an entirely different post.

That was the only other time I’ve been away from him for around a week also.

My parents have been spoiling him while I’ve been gone, which I love.

My mental health has been pretty good on this trip.

I did hear some random, disconnected voices last night but I was really really tired too.

So I don’t know.

But I did take a couple Haloperidol while being here because I could feel my agitation and frustration rise from these damn hot flashes I’m starting to get.

I’m officially at that age, damnit.

But the medication calmed me right back down and I was able to take a big breath.

We’re going to go see more ocean today.

We already walked this beautiful boardwalk and saw two eagles right at the top of one of the trees.

I’ve never seen two in the same tree that close to me before.

It was majestic!

I’m so excited to see the ocean.

We’re not going to see the big big ocean, because it’s like an hour and a half drive one way and I don’t feel like doing that much driving on my last day.

We’re just going to see something I can see 15 minutes away, in an inlay.

I’ll take the ocean where I can.

Either way it’s the same water.

(a few days later) We saw the ocean and it was beautiful.

I collected rocks and seashells.

Olympia was beautiful in general.

So stunning.

I did hear some voices my third night there, but I think I told ya all that already.

It wasn’t for very long but they were there for sure.

I got up and took a Haloperidol for it.

And have been taking one daily since.

Just in case.

I’m grateful it was just at night after my friend had gone to bed upstairs.

It was just a couple of voices talking about when I was doing.

Only lasted about ten minutes or so.

Other than that the whole vacation was great.

I’m so glad I was able to travel by myself and keep taking my meds everyday regardless of where I am.

It felt good to get out there on my own again.

I’m grateful my symptoms didn’t act up too much over all.

That was really relieving.

I’m glad to be home to see Brucie.

But I would love to move up there at some point.

It was stunningly gorgeous.

And the people were so amazing.

I didn’t smoke or partake in any weed while I was there either.

I wanted to, but I honestly didn’t want to be possibly thrown into any sort of episode by it for any reason.

I doubt it would, but I didn’t want to take the chance.

It scared me more than lured me.

So I stayed away.

It helped that my friend doesn’t smoke or really drink anymore either.

We stayed clean together.

So that was a good feeling too.

(a few days later) I’m proud of myself for setting clear of the weed goodies.

I have never done that before.

My willpower is gaining ground.

I still haven’t smoked a cigarette either.

I didn’t even hit my Juul while there.

Not once.

I thought that was huge!

I think I’m feeling the elevation change today.

I’ve had a headache since I woke up.

It’s not terrible, but nothing is helping, not even my Sumatriptan or Tylenol.

Or coffee or water.

Nothing is taking it away.

So I’m taking it easy today to try to curb it.

I’m so grateful I was able to travel on my own and not get thrown into an episode.

Breakthrough shit is tolerable at least.

My arthritis did flare up a bit.

I ended up using the steroid burst while there.

My ankles swelled up again yesterday but they’re slowly going back to normal.

Cheers to steroids!

– Keren