I had a wonderful weekend last week.

It was full of a wedding and blissful food and amazing, loving people. 

It was terrific.

I only really had one hour or so of symptoms, hearing the other people that are really voices around me talking about me and what I’m doing.

Narrators.

Accusatory type things.

But it only happened when we were out to eat, it lasted almost the whole time.

We were in a busy restaurant.

A little lingering murmurs through Monday and Tuesday and today I’m feeling better in that regard.

The whole wedding ceremony had me practically ugly crying, it was so full of love and beauty.

It was wonderful socializing and being able to socialize.

It was nice to catch up with some folks and then meet some too.

The venue was stunning and just as gorgeous as the two getting married.

It was wonderful.

The whole place was brimming with love for one another and the two brides.

It was one of the prettier weddings I’ve been to.

And probably the most fun.

The whole weekend was full of activities and dinners and catching up.

It was the best time I’ve had since one of my other buddies visited me down here in March.

It truly was a beautiful thing to watch.

Thing is, once things are beautiful, life crushes something in front of me.

I had a dear friend die this week too.

I didn’t know till Monday night.

A sweet, caring, lost man who didn’t know how to love himself.

He’s gone now and I don’t know what to think about it besides a sadness that’s uncomfortable.

I wish I would’ve kept in touch more.

He was one of my favorite Michigan people.

And I feel like I failed him.

I know there’s nothing I could’ve done.

He was going to do what he was going to do and there’s nothing anyone could’ve said to stop him.

But I can’t help but wonder about what could’ve been.

What I could’ve done, if anything.

This entry is shorter than what I would normally post but I don’t have much more to say.

I had the amazing and terrible happen within a 24 hour period.

I went from amazing mood to incredibly sad in an instant.

And I’m sure I’ll have more brain power to write more in a few days, but with that and my knee pain combined I honestly can’t think that well right now.

– Keren