As I sit here my knee is swelling up.

I fucking KNEW the steroid burst was too small.

I KNEW I needed a higher dose to really curb all of it.

Fuck.

This sucks.

I could barely get into my Honda Pilot today (It’s Monday) – which is a pretty big suv.

I can barely bend or lift my fucking right leg it’s so puffy.

I don’t know what to do.

I have knee injections soon though.

Thank fuck.

On December 9th tho.

Two weeks away or so.

I want to call them and see if I can get in sooner.

But I’ll just be patient.

Hopefully my swelling will be down by then.

Good news everybody!

My pain doc called in another six day steroid burst for me.

I guess that’s the strongest they can give me.

I had called in for a request of a burst to my primary care doctor but he didn’t respond quick enough for me.

I’m going to have to lecture him when I go in next week.

He told me he could prescribe my rheumatology meds till I get in next September.

I know he doesn’t want to.

But he said he would.

I’m going to call places in Austin this upcoming week about getting into a rheumatologist.

Someone told me the other day that they have to go there for their rheumatologist appointments.

So I’ll try up there.

It’s just a little further away than the alternative.

So it’s really not a big deal to drive up there.

I just really, really need to get in somewhere at this point.

But I honestly hadn’t had a flare that bad in over a year or so.

Those intense ones are, fortunately, a touch rarer than the normal just terrible flares.

I hadn’t had my ankles and feet swell up that bad in probably a few years honestly.

That shit was terrible.

I felt like my skin was going to pop off itself.

Good news is the steroids give me energy so I’ve been tiding up my apartment for the past week and a half.

Haven’t swept or vacuumed yet.

But it’ll come to me.

Maybe tomorrow.

But I’ve been saying that for weeks now.

It’s always going to be done tomorrow.

Then it’s “I should’ve done it yesterday”.

Oh well.

As the week goes on, my knee swelling has gone down a bit already.

And it’s just day two on the burst.

So that’s really promising.

I ordered a few different brands and doses of CBG.

It’s supposed to be really good for helping calm down inflammation.

Just like CBD does, but apparently a bit better even.

But there’s no clinical studies to back that.

Just personal experiences.

And it’s also supposedly good for depression and mood disorders too.

We’ll see about those ones.

I’m not expecting a miracle.

But lessened symptoms or dulled pain and inflammation symptoms would be welcomed.

I don’t think I’ll be able to get off any mental health medications because of it or anything.

But it may reduce the amount of arthritic flares that I have.

It’s supposedly good for rheumatoid arthritis specifically.

And I did order a couple of different brands of CBD as well.

I’ve been using one brand and ordered another.

Though with the last one, the third one, I’m waiting to order until I get a response on my disability discount possibility.

Which is a really cool thing to be waiting for!

So I’ll be patient.

I could get up to 60% off.

That’s for sure worth the wait.

But I did order Bruce some digestive pumpkin treats while I’m waiting too.

They were on sale for Black Friday, so I figure why not.

$20 was all.

And I hope they help his poos.

I know, I know, too much information.

But little known fact is that everyone poos.

Anyway.

I’m hoping I get the discount on the CBD site because they have some really, really good looking products.

Both CBD and CBG.

And they’ll be super affordable with the assistance.

The website is here and they have other discount opportunities and great looking stuff.

They use good hemp flower for their extracts too.

I’m excited.

My skin has gotten much better since using the CBD capsules this month – from a different company.

So that’s really cool.

My arms are not nearly as dry as they have been my whole life.

I’m kinda floored about it.

I haven’t been using lotion or anything like that.

Haven’t changed soaps either.

And I’ve noticed my constant aching pain levels – even through the flares, have been just slightly dulled.

And I can’t help but notice my muscle spazzing has been lessened the last few weeks too.

Pretty cool stuff.

I know it’s not FDA approved or studied or anything but neither is lavender or chamomile and that shit puts me to sleep.

So yeah.

Holy shit!

I just looked at my cart on the site again and I got into their assistance program!

They took so much money off!

That’s so fucking cool!

I’m about to order this shit right now!

Yay!

(a few minutes later) I ordered it all.

I’m fucking stoked.

Sorry, I just got super excited!

It’s nice to have some things go right because Brucie has an ear infection this week and cost me a small fortune of money.

I feel bad for the little guy tho.

Poor thing.

But he’s slowly acting like he’s feeling better as the days pass.

I had to take him into the doggo urgent care the other day (on Friday).

As I’ve written this I’ve gone from the beginning of the week/burst to the end and am feeling better.

Thank goodness.

It’s just so hard dealing with the inflammation.

That’s where I’m hoping the CBD and CBG will really help out.

-Keren