A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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The Denial
I haven’t been able to put much energy into my blog the past couple of weeks. I know I wrote some shit, but I was frustrated and symptomatic more than anything. It’s whatever. I’m trying to not be hard on… Continue reading
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Simulation and Situation
It has been a tough couple of weeks. I’m caught up in something I can’t control and it’s driving me up the wall. It’s triggering. And my hallucinations have been louder. The shadows are thick and the little balls dart… Continue reading
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Not A Good Week
I don’t even really have much this week other than disappointment and stress. And honestly I don’t feel like getting deep into it. But it’s been a week and I need to post something. I just wish I had more… Continue reading
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Stress
This week has been much, much better symptom wise for me. I’ve been able to flow smoothly today. Awaiting the ebb, but not holding my breath. My psychotic and depression symptoms have been few the past couple of days. On… Continue reading
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Medication Adjustment
Well, I’ve been feeling better the past couple of days. Getting out from under the couch blankets to finally walk Bruce around yesterday and today was nice. My cough is still around but the wheezing has let up. I feel… Continue reading
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Under the Weather
I’ve had a terrible cold this week, so pardon me if this entry is not too terribly long or interesting. I honestly don’t have much to say I guess, I’ve been coughing and trying to rest, so we’ll see how… Continue reading
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Being Triggered
Everything is seemingly turning another corner for the bigillionth time. My aches and pains are dulling down to a point where I can walk my little walk with Bruce again. (Until the next flare.) Which is annoying because I could… Continue reading
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Trusting Myself
I’ve been having symptoms kick up with my pain levels remaining quite high still. I also have an infection in a tooth of mine and am in need of a horribly helpful root canal. Boo. They’re just so uncomfortable. I… Continue reading
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Pain Levels and Depression Medication
My inflammatory osteoarthritis hasn’t been letting me sleep at all this week. Well, it’s been six days now of not being able to stay asleep through even half the night. It’s terrible really. I’m exhausted and can’t sleep because my… Continue reading
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Being Too Much
The radio noises don’t bother me too much, especially the music I hear. It doesn’t frighten me like the voices do. The murmurs that come along with the radio noises are not fun, and it makes me feel overstimulated with… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 