A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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A Thick Fatigue
I have been feeling very, very “meh” lately. Not good. Not bad. In the middle. Sorta feeling blah and frustrated with myself. I haven’t been writing as much lately. Writing an entry is becoming a chore for me and I… Continue reading
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Appointments
I missed my psychiatrist appointment. Well, I missed the appointment with the nurse practitioner that writes the prescriptions for my antipsychotics and antidepressant. He’s not a psychiatrist. I didn’t really have a good reason to miss my appointment, I just,… Continue reading
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Medications: Part Eight
I have been pretty stable with medications lately. I just got my Invega Sustenna injection again this last Tuesday. They had switched up my appointment without telling me but luckily the nurse was available to give it to me really… Continue reading
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Dreams or Thoughts
I keep having these recurring things in my dreams. I’m always carrying a backpack or bag that’s too way way way too heavy for me. Like, once it’s off my back it takes someone helping me to get it back… Continue reading
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Imposter
It’s been feeling like I don’t have much to write about the last few weeks. I’ve been posting still, but I’m back to once a week right now for the most part. I sometimes wonder if the pain that comes… Continue reading
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Stability
Stability is not always a given for me. I don’t think it’s a given for a lot of folks out there. I fluctuate back and forth between being lucid and not. And back and forth on my ability to be… Continue reading
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A Weekend to Remember
I had a wonderful weekend last week. It was full of a wedding and blissful food and amazing, loving people. It was terrific. I only really had one hour or so of symptoms, hearing the other people that are really… Continue reading
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Pain Levels
My left knee is killing me today and has been for several days now. It burns, is very stiff, and spazzes and aches terribly every time I get up and walk around. It’s difficult to walk this week. And I… Continue reading
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Suicidal Ideations
I know this will be hard for a lot of people to read, so consider this a trigger warning that suicidal ideations and thoughts are to heavily follow this sentance. I have been obsessing over this lump that I have… Continue reading
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Fixations and Bruce Wayne
I have this strange lump on the right side of my neck. I’m hoping it’s just a cyst or something harmless. And I won’t know much about it till Wednesday, when I have a follow up after the ultrasound tomorrow.… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 