automatic self talk
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Some of my Current Paranoia and Anxiety Struggles
I haven’t talked about my hallucinations or paranoia or anything mental illness symptom wise in a couple of entries. Not because they haven’t been happening. Just because I’ve been so focused and preoccupied on my physical symptoms, and keeping y’all… Continue reading
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A Procedure with a Twist of DVT
I had a sclerotherapy procedure on Friday afternoon last week. On my lower, right leg. Today is Saturday now (last week), and it’s going well. I’m sore, for sure. And a bit swollen. I had to limp a bit on… Continue reading
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I Binge Eat to Cope With my Emotions – My Emotional Relationship with Food
I meant to go to group today, it’s Tuesday. I was finishing up that Neutrality post from earlier this week, and totally lost track of time. I’m kinda mad at myself about it. At least there’s Life Skills tomorrow, so… Continue reading
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Neutrality, The Lost Middle Step on The Journey to Self Love -aka- Holding Myself in Neutrality, Because I’m Not Ready to Even Like Myself Yet
TW: a brief mention of sh, no details, one mention of ideations, no details, self loathing thoughts discussed in detail. I have actively hated myself for decades. I am talking, most of my life. Active self hating thoughts of “you’re… Continue reading
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Opposite: A Lost Personality Post Psychotic Break, and Other Things
I had this whole different entry written up. It was about sh. I can’t even spell it out because I remembered at the end, this morning, that fb and bluesky will block me if I fucking do. But I had… Continue reading
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My Automatic Self Loathing Has Been Quelled
With that rheumatologist appointment last week… I was unpacking it in therapy on Wednesday this week. My therapist said how mindblowing it was. She said it was a horrible thing that happened, but at the same time, she was really… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 