It’s really strange to say this, but I’ve been drooling lately.

Come to google this here.

While I’m thankful for the validation, I’m frustrated that it’s not written about more.

There’s not much on it.

Some wordy studies here and there or a passing comment.

I wish I could stop it though.

Why isn’t someone writing about this?

It’s about four or five times a day I’ll get this drip that starts on the far left or right side and it’s a mild amount of drool, and I’m wide awake.

Just hanging out and watching television, drooling.

Like, what in the fuck?

I’ll tell ya something, I’ve never felt more like a fucking head case.

I just envision folks who were locked in the old mental asylums and drooling excessively while strapped to their beds.

Mental illness is portrayed in movies and television that way too.

Almost every time there’s someone super zoned out and a drooling person on a couch, or even someone just standing around, drooling.

What a shitty, shitty feeling.

And seriously, what a fucked up side effect.

And I’ve been so tired still.

So sedated feeling.

That I just noticed this has been happening.

Today it clicked.

This is fucking drool.

I’m drooling!

I’m drooling?!

And the last couple of weeks, since switching to the Haldol, I’ve been slowly drooling everyday.

I have to wipe it off my face.

Why don’t doctors warn about this shit?

This is a very degrading and humbling issue to be having.

I don’t know, maybe I’m getting worked up over nothing, but I seriously feel bad about myself right now.

And there’s no reason for me to be.

I shouldn’t be getting so frustrated with something that I can’t control.

And what gets stigmatized in pop culture.

I can’t change any of that.

So, I guess I’ll try to not be so hard on myself because society makes it hard enough.

I don’t need the added hate.

Drooling is embarrassing though.

Is there a drool hanky I should carry around or something?

Always have a pack of tissues or what?

Or can I just wipe it with the back of my hands like I have been doing?

What’s the fucking etiquette?

Ah gawd.

Sheesh.

– Keren