healthcare advocate
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Chronic Pain, A Divorceiversary, and the Other End of an Episode
My left eye won’t stop twitching. It’s been about four days of off and on twitching. My heart is beating out of my chest – through the twice daily 120mg’s of extended release Propranolol. I’m trying to breathe, but my… Continue reading
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The Pains of Chronic Illness, and, of Course, Even More Doctor Appointments
How did I sleep and injure myself? How did I hurt myself, while I was sleeping? That is seriously ridiculous. My left hip is fucking killing me. It’s radiating into my lower leg, and into my lower back. It sucks.… Continue reading
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More Appointments, More Anxieties and Even More Medication Acceptance
This was absolutely wild… My parents told me this last weekend that apparently I played an entire season of basketball in the 6th grade. I have zero recollection of this. I mean, not one single memory. Now, I know I… Continue reading
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Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools
It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to… Continue reading
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From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships
So, it’s Monday. It’s been a day. Up and down. It started alright, made a couple of phone calls – made an appointment with my pain management doctor for a follow up after my nano PRP injections at the end… Continue reading
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Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over
I’ve been hearing shit this weekend still. Just like last week, most all of the “neighbors” are back. Fml. The “third floor neighbor” voices are here again. I saw a random guy – probably the new third floor neighbor’s son,… Continue reading
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I Got Sick Sitting by Myself
I feel horrible that I couldn’t put a blog entry together last week. I wrote up some stuff, but I absolutely hated all of it. So I just didn’t post anything. I feel like I have nothing constructive to say… Continue reading
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My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…
I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for today – for getting rid of it… Continue reading
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Medications: Part Fourteen
I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication, Clonazepam, 0.5 mg, a little… Continue reading
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What I’ve Learned Advocating for Myself in Healthcare (and more!)
As down on myself as I get for not being social, I have been more social the past few months. I just haven’t really made any more friends. Which is fine right now. I’m not gonna get down on myself… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 