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I Binge Eat to Cope With my Emotions – My Emotional Relationship with Food
I meant to go to group today, it’s Tuesday. I was finishing up that Neutrality post from earlier this week, and totally lost track of time. I’m kinda mad at myself about it. At least there’s Life Skills tomorrow, so… Continue reading
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Neutrality, The Lost Middle Step on The Journey to Self Love -aka- Holding Myself in Neutrality, Because I’m Not Ready to Even Like Myself Yet
TW: a brief mention of sh, no details, one mention of ideations, no details, self loathing thoughts discussed in detail. I have actively hated myself for decades. I am talking, most of my life. Active self hating thoughts of “you’re… Continue reading
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Opposite: A Lost Personality Post Psychotic Break, and Other Things
I had this whole different entry written up. It was about sh. I can’t even spell it out because I remembered at the end, this morning, that fb and bluesky will block me if I fucking do. But I had… Continue reading
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Chronic Pain, A Divorceiversary, and the Other End of an Episode
My left eye won’t stop twitching. It’s been about four days of off and on twitching. My heart is beating out of my chest – through the twice daily 120mg’s of extended release Propranolol. I’m trying to breathe, but my… Continue reading
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More Appointments, More Anxieties and Even More Medication Acceptance
This was absolutely wild… My parents told me this last weekend that apparently I played an entire season of basketball in the 6th grade. I have zero recollection of this. I mean, not one single memory. Now, I know I… Continue reading
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Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools
It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to… Continue reading
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From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships
So, it’s Monday. It’s been a day. Up and down. It started alright, made a couple of phone calls – made an appointment with my pain management doctor for a follow up after my nano PRP injections at the end… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 