A Delusional Predisposition

TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout

weekly writings of daily life

with mental illness.

stigmas shattered.

  • Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools

    It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to… Continue reading

    Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools

  • From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships

    So, it’s Monday. It’s been a day. Up and down. It started alright, made a couple of phone calls – made an appointment with my pain management doctor for a follow up after my nano PRP injections at the end… Continue reading

    From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships

  • Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over

    I’ve been hearing shit this weekend still. Just like last week, most all of the “neighbors” are back. Fml. The “third floor neighbor” voices are here again. I saw a random guy – probably the new third floor neighbor’s son,… Continue reading

    Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over

  • Stress and Hallucinations

    My anxiety has been out of control ever since the airbags randomly deployed in the Pilot at the end of March. I’m talking pretty much daily panic attacks. I’ve been using my TouchPoints constantly. I’ve been taking my Clonazepam and… Continue reading

    Stress and Hallucinations

  • Everything is Stressful and Changing

    I’m so fucking scared. My apartment complex just got sold. And they fired everyone who works here. I’ve been living here since I moved to Texas, for over four years, and I’m so scared as to what the new owners… Continue reading

    Everything is Stressful and Changing

  • I Got Sick Sitting by Myself

    I feel horrible that I couldn’t put a blog entry together last week. I wrote up some stuff, but I absolutely hated all of it. So I just didn’t post anything. I feel like I have nothing constructive to say… Continue reading

    I Got Sick Sitting by Myself

  • My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…

    I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for today – for getting rid of it… Continue reading

    My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…

  • Medications: Part Fourteen

    I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication, Clonazepam, 0.5 mg, a little… Continue reading

    Medications: Part Fourteen

  • My Car Traumas 

    I’ve been stressed this week. Well, actually, I’ve been super anxious. It’s from what happened with my Honda. I didn’t really go into it last week because I wanted to cover another topic. But I’ll go into it this week.… Continue reading

    My Car Traumas 

  • How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think

    I’m exhausted today. It’s Friday and I’ve had a helluva week. Between the Pilot’s airbags randomly deploying while I was driving home on Saturday (yeah, I know, scary, huh?) and dealing with my finances, I’m beat. And I’ve been having… Continue reading

    How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think