A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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The Pains of Chronic Illness, and, of Course, Even More Doctor Appointments
How did I sleep and injure myself? How did I hurt myself, while I was sleeping? That is seriously ridiculous. My left hip is fucking killing me. It’s radiating into my lower leg, and into my lower back. It sucks.… Continue reading
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More Appointments, More Anxieties and Even More Medication Acceptance
This was absolutely wild… My parents told me this last weekend that apparently I played an entire season of basketball in the 6th grade. I have zero recollection of this. I mean, not one single memory. Now, I know I… Continue reading
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Dealing with Anxieties and Friendship, and Accepting my Medications as Tools
It’s Monday today. And I don’t know why I can’t be happy for more than two days in a row. Three if I’m lucky. I started to get anxious again yesterday, Sunday. Had a huge panic attack. I had to… Continue reading
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From the Doctors to the Banks and to the Dealerships
So, it’s Monday. It’s been a day. Up and down. It started alright, made a couple of phone calls – made an appointment with my pain management doctor for a follow up after my nano PRP injections at the end… Continue reading
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Mental and Physical Symptoms are Taking Over
I’ve been hearing shit this weekend still. Just like last week, most all of the “neighbors” are back. Fml. The “third floor neighbor” voices are here again. I saw a random guy – probably the new third floor neighbor’s son,… Continue reading
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Stress and Hallucinations
My anxiety has been out of control ever since the airbags randomly deployed in the Pilot at the end of March. I’m talking pretty much daily panic attacks. I’ve been using my TouchPoints constantly. I’ve been taking my Clonazepam and… Continue reading
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Everything is Stressful and Changing
I’m so fucking scared. My apartment complex just got sold. And they fired everyone who works here. I’ve been living here since I moved to Texas, for over four years, and I’m so scared as to what the new owners… Continue reading
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I Got Sick Sitting by Myself
I feel horrible that I couldn’t put a blog entry together last week. I wrote up some stuff, but I absolutely hated all of it. So I just didn’t post anything. I feel like I have nothing constructive to say… Continue reading
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My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…
I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for today – for getting rid of it… Continue reading
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Medications: Part Fourteen
I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication, Clonazepam, 0.5 mg, a little… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 