A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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Stress and Hallucinations
My anxiety has been out of control ever since the airbags randomly deployed in the Pilot at the end of March. I’m talking pretty much daily panic attacks. I’ve been using my TouchPoints constantly. I’ve been taking my Clonazepam and… Continue reading
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Everything is Stressful and Changing
I’m so fucking scared. My apartment complex just got sold. And they fired everyone who works here. I’ve been living here since I moved to Texas, for over four years, and I’m so scared as to what the new owners… Continue reading
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I Got Sick Sitting by Myself
I feel horrible that I couldn’t put a blog entry together last week. I wrote up some stuff, but I absolutely hated all of it. So I just didn’t post anything. I feel like I have nothing constructive to say… Continue reading
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My Anxiety Caused Motion Sickness and Other Shituations…
I’m running on fumes. Emotionally, physically, financially. The whole picture is thin right now. The good thing is that I cleaned out the Pilot (on Friday afternoon last week). Got it ready for today – for getting rid of it… Continue reading
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Medications: Part Fourteen
I had a really good weekend. I’m feeling less anxious from the Honda’s airbags randomly deploying as the days pass. I’m noticing I’m still on edge a bit. I’m still needing my PRN anxiety medication, Clonazepam, 0.5 mg, a little… Continue reading
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My Car Traumas
I’ve been stressed this week. Well, actually, I’ve been super anxious. It’s from what happened with my Honda. I didn’t really go into it last week because I wanted to cover another topic. But I’ll go into it this week.… Continue reading
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How Mental Illness Affected my Ability to Think
I’m exhausted today. It’s Friday and I’ve had a helluva week. Between the Pilot’s airbags randomly deploying while I was driving home on Saturday (yeah, I know, scary, huh?) and dealing with my finances, I’m beat. And I’ve been having… Continue reading
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What I’ve Learned Advocating for Myself in Healthcare (and more!)
As down on myself as I get for not being social, I have been more social the past few months. I just haven’t really made any more friends. Which is fine right now. I’m not gonna get down on myself… Continue reading
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My Automatic Self Loathing Has Been Quelled
With that rheumatologist appointment last week… I was unpacking it in therapy on Wednesday this week. My therapist said how mindblowing it was. She said it was a horrible thing that happened, but at the same time, she was really… Continue reading
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My Rheumatologist Appointment Went Terribly…
It is my birthday week. I had a good time besides a shitty appointment with my rheumatologist, who will no longer be my doctor now. I’ll get into it. Number one his office is a little over 40 minutes away… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 