A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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EMDR Therapy
This week has been up and down. I’ve been going to a “life skills class”, which is a group at my therapist’s office. I’ve gone the past couple of Wednesday’s and I’ve really been liking it. We’ve been talking about… Continue reading
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I Literally Can’t Control Myself
When my symptoms pop up, my hallucinations and delusions, I lose control of myself, of my mind and body. Every night it happens and I quickly become paranoid, shake and mutter to myself because I’m hearing the voices. When I… Continue reading
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An Incomplete Puzzle
The past couple weeks I’ve gone to a life skills class at my therapist’s office. They have an art room there too folks just hang out in. Sean, my therapist, actually runs the group and suggested I give it a… Continue reading
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Anxious With The Wait
It’s been a strange feeling week. I’m so anxious for my disability hearing next month that it’s making me nauseous and so anxious I can barely stand to be around myself. I’m glad I get the opportunity to speak and… Continue reading
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Voices and a Theory
This week has been bad and I’ve been struggling. I’ve been having horrible breakthrough symptoms this week, but today I feel a bit better. Yesterday was day four back on Haldol. I can feel it working, but it just makes… Continue reading
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Milestone Weight Loss
It’s been an alright week. Pain levels are back to their full and dull roar, and I haven’t had many big hallucinations, just small ones. I also hit a milestone and lost 100lbs this week. Then I treated myself and… Continue reading
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Clinging to Words
Sometimes it feels like I lose track of everything. Names, places, conversations, memories, clothes. I forget things mid thought, mid sentence even and can’t get it back. I can’t place names to people for the life of me, let alone… Continue reading
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Pain and a Walker
My pain levels are finally starting to recede! I hope I don’t jinx anything by saying that. And the pain isn’t all gone, it’s just dulling. It never fully leaves. But my inflammation is way, way, down and practically back… Continue reading
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Suboxone
I can barely walk again today. This is week three of intense pain levels that show no sign of slowing. I can barely sit up and go to the bathroom. Sitting down on the toilet with bad knees makes it… Continue reading
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Therapy and Others
This week has been extremely, excruciatingly painful. Physically and mentally taxing. My knees ache with shooting pains and a constant drowning burn. My left shoulder, left ankle and left big toe feel like they’ve been hit with a baseball bat… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 