A Delusional Predisposition
TRIGGER WARNING: mental illness topics discussed, adult language used throughout
weekly writings of daily life
with mental illness.
stigmas shattered.
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Intrusive Thoughts and Suicidal Ideations
I’ll put this trigger warning here; this entry is gritty, raw and dark. I encourage you to sit in the uncomfortableness, but, if you’re sensitive to reading about intrusive thoughts and suicidal ideations, I’d stop reading. There is some rough… Continue reading
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Group Wasn’t The Best Idea Today
I just got done with a life skills group at my therapists office and I’m now almost out of control angry. I almost self harmed again on the way home. But instead, I cried. We’re learning about a therapy type… Continue reading
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Medications: Part Nine
*TW: Self Harm* I had my hearing yesterday morning for disability, and I’ll have the official answer, or decision rather, in a few months. So I have done all of the things in my power to get this approved and… Continue reading
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The Five Year Mark
On Tuesday this week my calendar in my phone alerted me of an event. I had asked, or rather, told my ex husband that I needed a divorce five years ago on Tuesday. It was a toxic waste site of… Continue reading
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EMDR Therapy
This week has been up and down. I’ve been going to a “life skills class”, which is a group at my therapist’s office. I’ve gone the past couple of Wednesday’s and I’ve really been liking it. We’ve been talking about… Continue reading
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I Literally Can’t Control Myself
When my symptoms pop up, my hallucinations and delusions, I lose control of myself, of my mind and body. Every night it happens and I quickly become paranoid, shake and mutter to myself because I’m hearing the voices. When I… Continue reading
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An Incomplete Puzzle
The past couple weeks I’ve gone to a life skills class at my therapist’s office. They have an art room there too folks just hang out in. Sean, my therapist, actually runs the group and suggested I give it a… Continue reading
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Anxious With The Wait
It’s been a strange feeling week. I’m so anxious for my disability hearing next month that it’s making me nauseous and so anxious I can barely stand to be around myself. I’m glad I get the opportunity to speak and… Continue reading
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Voices and a Theory
This week has been bad and I’ve been struggling. I’ve been having horrible breakthrough symptoms this week, but today I feel a bit better. Yesterday was day four back on Haldol. I can feel it working, but it just makes… Continue reading
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Milestone Weight Loss
It’s been an alright week. Pain levels are back to their full and dull roar, and I haven’t had many big hallucinations, just small ones. I also hit a milestone and lost 100lbs this week. Then I treated myself and… Continue reading
A Delusional Predisposition 